Go stand upon that mountain

Today I was walking up on the mountain, not far from where we spread John’s ashes yesterday. Also yesterday was a beautiful service for him at our church. We cried a lot, we laughed a lot, we rejoiced a lot. And we ate a lot. He would have loved it. But today, with the family gone and the house empty, I was feeling the reality that he is gone from my life on this earth forever. Gone. No more drives, no more camping, no more smiles, no more teasing, no more sweet companionship, no more long talks. No more security in his nurturing and care. He took such good care of me. We had so much fun together. He was my life, my joy, my sun.

So I cried as I walked and began to sing, “Go rest upon that mountain. Son, your job on earth is done. Go to Heaven a shouten’, look at the Father and the Son.” (by Vince Gill.)

I cried to God, with tears running down my face, “But his job wasn’t done here on earth. He needs to take care of me.”

“Oh my child,” I heard God say in my mind, “I will take care of you. I will sustain you.”

This verse came to my mind, “Cast your burdens upon the Lord and He will sustain you. He will take care of you. He will not let the godly slip and fall.” Ps. 55:22 (NIV, NLT)

I stood still and soaked in God’s love for a moment. Birds sang around me. A vista of ridges, trees, the valley and snow capped mountains spread at my feet. God’s presence enveloped me and I was filled with sweet peace.

“I will trust You, Lord,” I prayed, “I will trust you to sustain me, to take care of me, to nurture me, to hold me up, to support me. Jesus you are in me. You are with me. You are for me. You will guide me, you will provide, you will use me for your glory, you will bless me.

He already is blessing me with the love of family, the support of friends, the help and advice with finances from John’s family. He always comes through. I can trust Him because He is trustworthy.

“God’s way is perfect. All the Lord’s promises prove true. He is a shield for all who look to Him for protection.

He arms me with strength. He makes my way PERFECT.

He makes me as surefooted as a deer, enabling me to stand on mountain heights” Psalm 18:30, 32-33

Go stand upon that mountain!